When I don't make a new post for a while I begin to feel remiss for some reason ever though this is really just a diary, and there is no pressure to make a new entry. I guess I just feel as if it needs done. So anyway, I will jot down a few random thoughts:
1. I am really ready for Spring. I hate Winter, and the last couple of days of bitterly cold temps have me longing to feel the warm sun on my face.
2. I am only 3 pounds away from my initial weight loss goal, and I have already decided that I want to lose an extra 5 pounds after that. I think that is realistic, because I honestly feel that anymore weight after that I would be able to lose, but then not maintain which could be detrimental to my attitude. Truthfully I could stop now, but I wouldn't be satisfied. Dave actually picked me up and carried me into the boudoir last week when we were on our way to...well, you get the picture. The point is, my husband carried me for quite possibly the first time in the 10 years we've been together. I felt like such a girly girl. And Victoria's Secret is making out with a nice chunk of my money these days because I am enjoying buying pretty things there. So, see, everybody wins.
3. 10 days till Lost Season 4. But who's counting, right?
4. I just deleted what I had written in this line, because I am not sure I want it out here for the world to see. Matt, I'll talk to you later about it.
5. I spent the better part of last week feeling very angry over the personal tragedy that someone I am sort of acquainted with is experiencing. It only serves to reinforce my idea that there is no sense in many things that happen to human beings, and this new age shit out there about how our thoughts and actions vibrate through the universe and the "Law of Attraction" picks up on it and acts accordingly makes me want to puke. It's all rubbish, because no higher order, which is what this "Law of Attraction" bunk is suggesting it is, would punish a mother and father with what these two were dealt. According to this school of thought, these two parents had thoughts or actions which brought about what they are experiencing. And according to this school of thought even the baby itself somehow manifested thoughts and emotions that brought about what it experienced. This sort of teaching is receiving widespread acceptance right now, and I think it is a dangerous road to be heading down. When I heard one of its proponents skirt the question of whether, but then sort of imply that, children who are abused or killed bring the crimes on themselves I knew I had heard enough. And to make matters worse it is being pimped out by the most popular TV personality the world has ever known. Look, I am all for the notion of "smile, and the world smiles back"; that is just putting on a happy face, and altering your perception of the world around you. There is truth in that, but this other nonsense has got to go. Wow, I am glad I got that out of my system. I think it has been festering for some time.
Well, there you have it. This turned into more of a post than I thought it would.
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Monday, January 7, 2008
A much needed new wardrobe
The scale is fickle everyday, but for all intents and purposes, I have lost, let's say, nearly 40 lbs. Yesterday it was 39.5 lbs, and today it is 39, and tomorrow it may be 40. That's the way it is for a woman, and I expect it can be the same for a man. At any rate, I am within 6 pounds of my goal. Over the weekend, I gave away 3 large bags of clothes, and I was left with very little. I decided not to hold on to them (the bigger-sized clothes), because I have no intention of going back to weighing what I did. To hold onto them would only be like a security blanket. I was afraid that somewhere in the back of my mind I would be telling myself, "You may need them again one day." So I got rid of them. It was a catharsis.
I did a little shopping this morning. Got a few things, but I am in need of more. I am very excited to go shopping again, and soon. I can't go too overboard, because I really am not quite done losing weight. I think I am safe buying shirts and tops, but I have to show some restraint on pants and the like, because I don't want to invest a buttload only to have them not fit in 4 or 6 weeks. It was very nice to have tried on a pair of size 10 Dockers, and realized that an 8 would probably fit, and then try on the 8 and hello! The 8 fit. I am still a 10 in some jeans, but I haven't been a 10 in a long time, and a ten is a fine size. When all is said and done I don't know for sure what size I will be --I would like to fall somewhere around a 6 or an 8. And as fine as a size as a 10 is, a 6 or an 8 is better.
I did a little shopping this morning. Got a few things, but I am in need of more. I am very excited to go shopping again, and soon. I can't go too overboard, because I really am not quite done losing weight. I think I am safe buying shirts and tops, but I have to show some restraint on pants and the like, because I don't want to invest a buttload only to have them not fit in 4 or 6 weeks. It was very nice to have tried on a pair of size 10 Dockers, and realized that an 8 would probably fit, and then try on the 8 and hello! The 8 fit. I am still a 10 in some jeans, but I haven't been a 10 in a long time, and a ten is a fine size. When all is said and done I don't know for sure what size I will be --I would like to fall somewhere around a 6 or an 8. And as fine as a size as a 10 is, a 6 or an 8 is better.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
conflicting schedules
I am pressed for time, but it has been so long since my last post, that I wanted to write something. Dave and I saw "I Am Legend" on New Years Day. I really enjoyed it. I think Will Smith's performance made the movie. He was amazing. There are so many films out right now that I want to see: No Country For Old Men; Sweeney Todd; National Treasure Pt. 2; and in a couple of weeks, Cloverfield. We just don't get to go as often as I would like.
There is actually a lot I would like to write about, but I don't have the time right now, and also some of it shouldn't be on a public blog, because one never knows if it could reach the eyes of someone it isn't suppose to (no matter how slim the chance may be), and so I can't really say anything. I can see the wisdom in making it necessary for people need my approval before being able to read my blog. Suffice it to say that recently I was treated rather nastily by someone who I have never given cause to treat me in such a manner. It was, for me, the proverbial "straw", and this person is now on my shit list.
I have to work tonight, and that is another source of trouble for me. I still really like my job, but with Dave working so much overtime (and hopefully will be doing so until March - I only say hopefully because we both know how much we need the money--the downside is not seeing one another) it is getting very difficult to juggle the kids and my work schedule. I am always relying on my folks, and it isn't fair to them. My mom will be going to Florida in a few weeks, and I don't know what I'll do. I guess I need to tell work to give as many of my hours during that time to someone else because I just won't be available. Yikes!! Confrontation. If they can't/won't work with me on that I'll be in a real pickle. I'll still need my job when Dave's overtime ends, but for now it is not working out so well.
There is actually a lot I would like to write about, but I don't have the time right now, and also some of it shouldn't be on a public blog, because one never knows if it could reach the eyes of someone it isn't suppose to (no matter how slim the chance may be), and so I can't really say anything. I can see the wisdom in making it necessary for people need my approval before being able to read my blog. Suffice it to say that recently I was treated rather nastily by someone who I have never given cause to treat me in such a manner. It was, for me, the proverbial "straw", and this person is now on my shit list.
I have to work tonight, and that is another source of trouble for me. I still really like my job, but with Dave working so much overtime (and hopefully will be doing so until March - I only say hopefully because we both know how much we need the money--the downside is not seeing one another) it is getting very difficult to juggle the kids and my work schedule. I am always relying on my folks, and it isn't fair to them. My mom will be going to Florida in a few weeks, and I don't know what I'll do. I guess I need to tell work to give as many of my hours during that time to someone else because I just won't be available. Yikes!! Confrontation. If they can't/won't work with me on that I'll be in a real pickle. I'll still need my job when Dave's overtime ends, but for now it is not working out so well.
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